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佢決定了去日本旅行了,本來冇咩問題,但原來佢哩排冇錢,屋企又拎唔到錢,佢話我知,我咪話可以借錢俾佢去,點知佢又唔要,佢話佢唔鍾意問人借錢,情願冇錢唔去(我鍾意佢哩點,雖然佢愛花錢,但唔貪錢),佢又話想問佢個工程師朋友拎錢(我梗係唔想佢咁做),我真的想幫佢,但又幫唔到. 之後佢個朋友先斬後奏,同佢報埋名,咁我咪話借俾佢去(佢還唔還都唔係咁緊要.我都係想佢去得成之嘛),佢又肯收,我當然開心.回到家online,我諗著講笑的話"唔還的話,只俾一千",我都覺得講得過分了很多,激嬲了佢,我都覺得自己衰,咪say 哂 sorry, 道哂歉!! 點知佢話" 我高估了自己在你心中的地位",佢哩句都係好hurt我,我俾錢佢都係想去旅行開心,我自己都唔捨得花錢自己去旅行,我對佢重好過對自己,愛佢重多過愛自己,佢竟然話我唔重視佢,哩句話真係好傷我心,搞到我對眼赤赤痛,重有淚光(我重以為自己好堅強,估唔到係咁脆弱),我真係想offline睡了算,不過我hurt了佢在先,我又唔可以唔理佢,搞到我幾唔開心都要佢原諒我先.終於我睡時係床頭滴了兩點眼淚.(依家咁打哩篇野,我自己都好唔開心)佢話我係衰人都得,但係唔可以話我唔重視佢.佢竟然質疑我唔鍾意佢,實在太傷我心!